This might be some old news, and a bit late overall, but I think this event had to be addressed fully.

The Boston Marathon bombings.

The current disposition of the story is as follows: two brothers Tsarnaev of Chechen origin moved to Kazakhstan, then to US. Gained citizenship as political refugees from the bloody Russian regime, got college grants as sportsmen, lived in the US for some time – the older even married an American wife. Their family was also scattered – father stayed in Dagestan.

Few years ago, they traveled back to Dagestan for unknown reasons, and Russian intelligence that tracked their online activity had alerted the FBI for possible muslim radicalization of these people. The American intelligence briefly looked into it, found nothing more and got no more feedback from the Russian side.

Then, they made bombs out of pressure cookers and blew up some bystanders at the Boston Marathon, because holy jihad.

I actually nearly peed myself with excitement when I heard about this and followed the story. It's sweet, sweet as fuck justice. I'm sorry, my American friends – but I'm glad this marathon got blown up to fucking shits and pieces. Call it schadenfreude of the worst sort, but you deserved it.

You see, you shouldn't pity yourself and US citizens in general over this, because what happened is classic Russian Roulette, sorry for the pun. It's silly to believe that if you load a gun, put it to your temple and pull the trigger, and if the bullet is in the champer, it won't blast your brains out. That's what Americans do.

The US had been toying with islamists since the dawn of time. The US actually has an interesting dualism when it comes to muslims. I'll tell you the legend. If the muslims act in a way that is detrimental to USA interests, they're terrorists and towelheads, axis of evil, blah blah. If the muslims act in a way that is beneficial to US geopolitical goals, they're "rebels", "freedom fighters", "separatists" and basically the nice guys that want democracy and friday BBQ and a Chevy. Real red-blooded good guys.

This has been the case with Chechens. The Chechen insurrection since the 1990s had been a fuse that was slowly burning and from several perspective points, believe to be a detonator to crumble Russia further down. Let's be realists – despite everything, the NATO (and so, US) strategy had always been about minimizing russian influence in the post-soviet Europe and restricting the state from going back to a local superpower, for geopolitical and economical reasons.

Caucasus states, their instability, are a convenient barrier between Russia and Central Europe/Middle East, a demarcation zone that prevents the growth of Russia, as state. The Caucasus region, basically, is a collar around our necks. That was always understood by the West. Therefore, the region's instability played nicely into the US foreign strategy concerning Russia. If these states – Chechnya, Ingushetia and Dagestan – are clusterfucks, they're unsafe for Russian military, and therefore, no placing of strategic weaponry can be achieved by the Russian state there, because they can be seized by the so-called "rebels".

If you inspect it closely, the shakes and shudders of the islamist Russian republics coincides with the movements on forwarding the anti-missle shields. It's a tricky game of tactics, but the base principle remains – move the shield closer to Russian borders, destabilize republics to prevent Russian forces by moving their weapons on points where their proximity would overpower the shield.

So, what's this about, speaking simply – the NATO block loved the Chechens with a deep and hot love. Being a part of the military in this region, I can testify this on any holy book – I've seen weapon and tech shipments that the Chechens couldn't get nowhere in Russia. Won't say they got it from Americans, no... but from their allies. The financing of the wahhabism movement came from many sources, indeed, and western ones were among those.

In this light, such events such as Britain and other western european countries taking wanted Chechen, Ingush and Dagestan criminals and terrorists under their wing, grants of asylum and so on, comes as no surprise. And the media... of course the Western Pravda hailed them as heroes and rebels.

As a journalist, I've experienced that. If one would to open any american, british, or german publication on such disastrous terrorist acts such as Beslan, Nord Ost, Domodedovo bombings, the Moscow subway bombings, you will always see one thing – justification of islamic terrorists.

Before analyzing the event for what it is, a terrorist act, any media reaction towards muslim violence in Russia, is this – "Chechnya for decades battled the federal forces in a struggle for an independent republic, only to be quashed by Kremlin's iron-fisted enforcer Kadyrov. Fueled by the bloody history, where Stalin had displaced millions of Chechens during WW2, Chechen separatists long sought independence from the russian state – and the federal retaliation was nothing short of brutal. Thousands were displaced, killed, Grozny leveled... even still, the proud elders of Chechnya try to honor the ways of their fathers".

This isn't a glimpse of history. The prevading message, the ONLY message that the West ever gave, is that the Russians are evil empirialists oppressing a little peaceful republic and stomped down on the budding flowers of democracy, so whatever the Chechens do, its JUSTIFIED BECAUSE RUSSIANS ARE BAD AND TREATED THEM BAD. Oh, and condolescences for the victims, btw. Good riddance, russkies.

Chechens were the US' governments little monkeys – far away, scarce, but a good little schtick to poke the Russian bear with it and keep it occupied. The GOOD muslims, you see.

But as with Afghanistan and every other Middle East project, the roosters came to roost. Or what's the saying?

Because there is no good or bad muslims. No tame, "your" muslims. No "you'll do some rebel fighting for me cuz we have common enemy" muslims. There's the muslims – and you. Separate.

The act of the Tsarnaev brothers are an epitome of this simple thought. They were radicalized and left to feel just in their hate for the kaffirs. They were supposed to blow up a Russian marathon, of course – and the world would cry a bit crocodile tears for the victims, and then join the chorus "but it's because they were oppressed!".

But a glitch happened. They blew up their benefactors. Or is it not a glitch? Because that often happens with muslims. They're not your soldiers, your team. They have their own team, and that team is called "kill the whitey christian fucker". They wouldn't discern between American and Russian, because in their eyes, we have more common with each other than you think.

I really wish we could deport all the Chechens, Ingushes and Dagestanians to UK and US. Just imagine all the diversity, all the vibrance. Imagine how good it will be, for they will be safe from us merciless russian slav beasts. They'll all be yours to cuddle and train to do the "roll over and die" trick. It would be glorious.

So, I commend the Tsarnaev brothers. I really do. I'm only sad that they hadn't killed as much americans as they planned. You'd ask why I say such horrible things, on an american site? I reiterate – sweet justice. Maybe, just maybe, this will wake the West up. Make it understand that you can't play with fire, and with one hand shoot the terrorists, and with the other – give them bullets.

Of course, it will fall on deaf ears. Right now, studies are being wrote, about "what did we do wrong? Why didn't they play for our team? How do we make chechens hate Russians more than us, and not let this repeat itself?". Studies to explain how Tsarnaev brothers' "violent" past in war-ravaged Chechnya afflicted them and made them lash at the beloved American dream.

No one would stand up and say: "you know, it's partially our fault".

Well, as a Russian, I would. As a person, who had a pretty solid chance of being gunned down or blown up by a fucking Chechen scumbag in Grozny's area, I would. Would anyone cry for me? Doubt it. We, federal forces cogs, are just a faceless oppressive mass of opressors, indeed.

So, it's your fault. When it was the Moscow subway, it wasn't of any concern, right? Just freedom fighters fighting for freedom, the way they can. Not a senseless act of violence, nooooo, there was a grain of common sense there, assymetrical warfare, all the jazz.

Do I have pity for the Boston bombing victims? Zero. Logic and pity don't go well together. And fuck your victims the way ours were fucked. The only voice here that matters is our voice, the Russian voice, and I'm gonna say what all of you pussies would never say and shield your pathetic ears from hearing:

Good job, Tsarnaevs. Good job.

I hope you left the pressure cooker bomb blueprints for the others.

It would take a lot more blood than was already spilled to teach the West to not to raise killers and naively believe they won't come for you in the end. It would take more terrorist acts to teach the USA that a muslim terrorist is a muslim terrorist, and not Play-Doh to mold to your objective.

If it was in my power, I'd start a Chechen enrichment program for the whole fucking world.

Because everyone needs some freedom, Chechen style.

Lately I've been thinking about how incomplete many people are. About a trail of wrecked expectations I leave behind to my own general indifference about the matter.

I'd like to share some of my observations with you, my watchers.

You see, I'm an extrovert. I'm social, I'm talkative, I quickly involve myself with other people – I like that, really. I don't expect much from people, and feel that general communication is a pleasant way to fill in time between productive things – and I hope people don't expect much from me either in such situations.

But I've learned maybe a bit late in my life, that many people mistake my extroversion and sociality for openness and friendliness. They often think that they are my friends, when I think of them as of aquaintances at best. And thus, they start to project this "friendship" where it doesn't exist. They mistake my altruism for friendliness. They mistake my desire to communicate for something bigger.

And at a point, they get confronted with the fact that I'm not a lifeboat, and wouldn't hold their shit for them.

This stems, in my point of view, of the modern incompletedness of people, that is stimulated by everything around us, starting from education, to media and medicine. People are constantly told to rely on something – to rely on others. But no, not just rely – completely depend and not deem being an autonomous entity.

People are born into a paradigma of codependancy of the worst kind. That's why you get social networks popularity surging. Why people are so INFANTILE nowadays. They are incomplete, and can't exist without a plethora of supports and crutches that would complete them. Without reattaching like a deep-sea parasitic angler to some other poor sod.

This leaves many with a warped perspective on true friendship and meaningful relationships. When you're in a frantic, frenzied search for a tit to suck on after you've parted with your mothers' one, you fail to realize that strong bonds with others is a matter of true compatibility and hard work. Friendships build through overcoming challenges and hardships.

Once, one of my friends asked what is friendship to me. I said – trust and selflessness where it matters. Or something along the lines. Friendship, a true friendship, is when you trust a person to not fail you for an idiotic reason when you're in dire need. But this can only be known through a test, when such a situation arists. Therefore, friendship emerges as a postfactum occurrence.

But today, what does it constitute? A facebook "like". A sharing of common interest. Talking to someone. Having a laugh. Total devaluation as a result for a societal pressure to find someone to depend on. But that's the irony – people who form bonds amongst each other are not dependable at all in such situations.

That's why you have so many failed marriages, relationships and so on. People constantly confuse mild interest or passion for something that requires years to build and test through.

Worst part, is that when you're not a total autistic sperg with zero social skills, people think they're entitled to your friendship or interest just because they exist and because they're a special snowflake.

It usually goes like this, at least happened to me, often – the following interaction is a courtesy of one of my actual friends, and it was nailed on the head:

"I'm awkward, not very smart, not talented or skilled, my self-esteem is low and I'll get offended by your success, I'm rather ugly and/or not appealing in general, and I don't do many productive things? WANNA BE BEST FRIENDS FOREVER?"

"No? Don't wanna be my friend, while I offered the world to you? You grew politely dis-attached? WELL, I'LL GET OFFENDED AND STALK YOUR ASS FOR 2 YEARS! DONT WANNA BE MY FRIEND – YOU'LL GET AN ENEMY!" </b>

Yes, I had/have it. I have crazy stalkers. I have chicks who thought that after sending me their topless photos, I'll be with them forever. I have people who stalk my ass, make fake facebook accs after me, people who can't get over the fact that I'm not their "friend" anymore, when I specifically warned them that they're expecting more than I could dish out for them. People who decided, as stated above, that they've "seen through my bullshit", that  I'm an abhorrent douchebag that didn't appreciate them and are now on a quest to right all my wrong-doings, bring me to justice, fix their wounds, revenge, etc. Because, God forbid we have a sense of reason and responsibility, and move on. That's not an option.

And this is really tragic. We're atomizing. People that have the potential to evolve in strong, autonomous, life-enjoying personalities, are stuck in a state of blood-sucking larvae in needs of hosts. And no host like having parasites. Politeness, etiquette, social boundaries - fuck that, we here have more friends to make! More people to assert our worthless, meaningless existence!

Women are especially prone to that. Ironically, the more feminists and other "strong women"-types call for female independence, they all devolve pretty quickly into dependance from other people, women and men, clinging to whatever assertion of themselves they could muster.

And modern men go down that road too, with the "friendzone" and "nice-guy" crap.

There are so many weak, incomplete people, writhing and wallowing around in their apparent uselessness, it's mind-boggling. Naturally, they get drawn to the stronger personalities, to those that could function by themselves, without being a bicorporal entity made of two losers.

There are so many, but friendship is possible only among the strong, those with the willpower.

In all other cases, it's parasitic, incomplete and wretched bonds. And once you realize you're having this, and if you're sane, you severe them.

But note – it's always the parasite that gets harmed, the parasite that wails and flails the most from being hurt and cut off from the source of food and energy.

Free yourself, if you're reading this.

In a few days it will be yet another date since Yuri Gagarin's venture in space. This year, it will be 52 years – more than half a century since the day humanity proved itself to be unstoppable.

As fast as technical and societal progress happened afterwards, 2013 of our Lord Jesus Christ looks nothing like the future dreamed by those that made Yuri's flight possible and those that came after to further his success.

We live in this future, and you have to give it to the old science fiction masterminds of the past – while not exactly an orwellian Brave New World, it's still closer to a bleak dystopia, than an edifice to humanity's power.

We live in a realized failure of potential.

I'll explain why and where we went wrong.

***

I grew up in a family of technicians and engineers. People linked to the space exploration era. I grew up learning how truly limitless a man's power is, given a focused drive, and I grew up with books that took mankind to the stars, or at least to some exciting new transcendence of mind over matter.

Back in the day, it seemed perfectly possible. Science was booming. The frontiers of knowledge seemed closer than ever, the Universe barely able to contain its secrets from spilling out for us. And it indeed was true. Progress was rapid, it started a chain reaction, development in ways we haven't even predicted. The Human Genome project. Space Shuttles. Cheap nuclear energy. Medicine and biotech rapidly revolutionizing. Computer and communication tech suddenly taking shape into a game changer.

In the last 50 years we amassed so much breakthrough critical mass, that it dwarves everything humanity did since the dawn of time, since the first cromagnon took a pointed stick to kill something.

But in the end, and that is the single tragedy of our time, this roiling mass of innovation came to a halt due to lack of any understanding what to do with it.

There is one good reason why there are no Moon bases. Why no state, except for Russia, even pretends to train for flight for Mars. Why AI and brain virtualization isn't moving anywhere for years. Why space tourism remains a prospect. Why people sit in the ISS and make smart faces trying to show they're doing science.

Because the paradigm shifted.

There is no ideal, no vector to evolution. No values to pursue, build or uphold. Nothing to find, among the stars or in the depths of sea.

 Humanity ain't about this anymore. Humanity's all about making life comfortable for savages and poor fucks who should've fallen off the boat year ago. The Promethean fire is wasted on scum and human garbage

Our goal isn't to move forward.

Why? We've got what we wanted, don't we? We've got a TV set, some good old retro games, the Internet, cheap food, welfare, jobs that don't grate on us to much, ability to waste our lives for centuries and let the state take care of our offspring and problems.

***

 Liberals across the globe can rejoice – we have reached the end of history. Done. We did it. Now, since the white people got it so good, the only thing left to do, is shower the same "privileges" of the recently deceased hi.story on the other few billion of Third Worlders. Feed the poor, cure cancer, give a "like" for that on Facebook. Dance butt-naked at homosexual marriage ceremonies and wire blacks to virtual reality stations where they can rape white girls till kingdom come in post-slavery revenge frustration.

Afterwards, at this peak of sentimental glory, we just as might nuke ourselves.

This is the dystopia I am talking about.

I don't know if anyone feels it. But I do. The suffocating nausea of stagnation, of hopelessness. The fish rots from the head in this carnivale during the plague.

Only this time, it's the plague of the mind.

***

In some ways, it was a wicked witch circle. The explosive progress and belief in humanity's apparent godhood had created an illusion, that "savagery" like religion, violence, true natural traits should be abolished by man, that we can deconstruct reality as it is.

Modern western liberalism-socialism had become this loaded gun with which our civilization played suicide. The foundations of our world had been shattered, turned inside out to tickle the morality muscle of those who found a new electorate in the worthless and degenrate.

In the absence of higher purpose, one can reap the fruits of such abandonment.

There is, in reality, no purpose in our civilization anymore. We are left alone to our devices – devices that came to be through truly inspirational research and altruistic urges, but that failed to do anything but comfort us in this decay.

Of course, it is presented in another light. We are forced to believe that our purpose isn't the relentless progress anymore, but more "socially-oriented morality goals". We were fed a surrogate of beliefs and values, a mess leftover from the traitorous disassembly of the great white civilization.

We were given a new Bible – the Human Rights codex. Even though, when humans get these rights, and when non-humans get them, they have no idea what to do with them.

We were given new saints and martyrs – the subhuman, the fag, the dyke, the retard.

We were told to drop our riches and help them, and in doing so, achieve salvation.

We were given a new fake religion to fill up the empty space of the dreams that never came true.

When I think about it, I realize where the self-flaggelation comes from, why modern white young people throw themselves into the whole anti-privilege movements, social-justice, anti-white paradigm, into the Opression Olympics.

A human needs something to hang to, something that would tell him that that he is valuable and needed, that he can channel wisdom and purpose to others. Atomized by their own self-imposed suffering, it becomes a new, marketable identity.

There are no wars to fight, no lands to defend, no truth to wash in blood. Everything is relative, aside from the strength of diversity and division. But look at it with a clear eye, and noone would point what did this strength achieve. What it aims to achieve.

This fragmented, selfish, self-degrading and at the same time, righteously comforting religion of the new offers nothing for humanity. The goal to feed the poor and right all the wrongs seems noble, but then what?

What happens next, after all the starving africans are fed, after all the racism abolished, after the last white person fading into the background of a grey goo mass? When every homosexual is married and every feminist owning a male slave? What happens next when everyone is equal to another in worth and opportunity?

Voice this question, I urge you.

They will never answer. Because they don't know. They don't even imagine. They can't find a cause where this unified humanity can apply it's supposed strength?

***

I can tell you, though.

Nothing happens. We arrived to the end of history. And maybe, maybe, there will be yet another parameter to fight for the equality of. Look at these hordes marching to the edge. Homo mensura omnium rerum. But if the man is small, so are the things that he measures by his existence.

And then, then we might have this dystopia. Who will take the reigns, if the Left succeeds in taking them out of white hands? The asians? The blacks? The incompetent fools we are now trying to save for the sake of shunning our own development? Don't think so. These civilizations are cyclistic, they will happily diverge back to ashes, as the wheel of Sansara turns. Make no mistake.

I can imagine it. A slow, agonizing death, glossed over by social media and it's warped cousin in the near future. Death through donation to charities, death through electorial landslides, death through self-shaming and abstination. Nausea.

It will look almost like a splendid, high-tech life, this death. It will appear as if it actually sets a goal for the future.

But there is no point in it. Because it's the end of the narrative for this paradigm. A social justice utopia turned stagnant filth.

***

Progress and development, evolution always leaves things unequal to one another. When a new species manages to fit it's niche better than the predecessor, the other dies out or fades into the background. When a better thing is invented, the older version is abolished. When someone sets a record, the others are left in the dust.

We had arrived to the point, where egalitarism encroaches on progress, because progress is unmerciful.

Reality is unmerciful. There is no grace in nature, no sympathy, no sentiment. There is but pain and triumph.

We were robbed of it.

Understand it. YOU were robbed and you are being robbed of a future, of a purpose, of a goal. You were given, instead, a nasty little surrogate to place your hopes on and stroke your ethics sore to justify you wasting your life in producing goods and money to fund an incompetent, stagnant dream of equality and justice.

You were given it, and accepted it. You accepted Facebook over endless possibilities. You accepted fighting for angry black women rights instead of reaching for the stars. You settled for a video game console instead of a superhuman body. You decided that starving africans are more important than immortality.

Now, you pay the price.

I hope you enjoy 2013 of our Lord, Jesus Christ.

***

But to end it on a more positive note...

Footsteps of loners one day become a march of thousands. If there is a purpose in times, when reality actively stops you from having one, stopping the End of Times is a good one.

Perhaps, I, and you too, reader, won't see the results of our actions. However, actively resisting this, with all your might and ability, your competence and knowledge, is the least one can do to further the breakeven and turn the tide in our favor.

There are billions of dead behind us, our ancestors and inspirators, and in your mind's eye, they are watching what choice you'll make.

 

Will you bury yourself amongst the others or rise.

Lately I've been getting a barrage of hilarious messages from teen and tween self-appointed "anti-fascists".

Mostly death threats, urges to commit suicide and wishing me eternal torment is supernatural dimensions, such as Hell. This is all silly of course, but because quite many came in a short time frame, I've noticed a pattern that I probably did notice before but never articulated in my mind.

Why are people that are supposedly against violence, genocide and torture are so fixated on genital and anal mutilation of their ideological opponent? This is some evident red thread running through these people's minds and vocalizations. Every second, or even first, threat or insult is directed at harming the offending person's - mine - posterior or privates.

"Omg I'm gonna ruin your butthole"
"I hope you're going to get raped in jail by big black dudes"
"I'll ram up (object) up your anus"
"You people should be castrated"
"You'll gonna shit blood after I'm through with you"

etc

Seriously. I'm getting stuff like that. Granted, I'm desensitized and find it hilariously pathetic that people think they can intimidate like that via Internet, but why? Why so much talk about anus and harm to it? It's a viable torture technique, of course, employed by law enforcement and criminals worldwide, but it's a technique to extract information, not kill. Harm done to such areas for the sake of doing before death, or as intimidation of others, is usually widespread amongst savages - Somalians, Nigerians, some arabic organizations, south american druglords and so forth.

Or, if it were europeans, it was done for religious torture reasons.

Civilized, effective european war-machines evolved above sticking someone up on a stake, in mass.

But antifascists are actually stuck with Somalians or crooked cops on this, I guess. Anal fixation, it's really interesting, why it ruptures up in so many of these social justic bleeding fag minds? Why they think it's acceptable and non-conflicting with their entire worldview? In addition to these defenders of LGBTBBQASDFGHJA rights readily yelling "FAGGOT" at every normal person and eventually downgrading the quality of this insult over the internet, there's also this.

Yes, I know it is done to verbally assault my manhood, to make me feel uncomfortable and offended, because such a violation is one of the worst thing that could happen to any guy - tell what you want, for men its more damaging, physically and mentally, than for women. But still, the sheer amount and repetativeness betrays not an attempt to insult, but a channeling of fantasy and fixation.

I dunno. If you're ok with voicing that you want to anally violate some stranger for commiting the sin of not buying into your civilizational values, you should reflect a bit and realize that maybe then your understanding of these values are somewhat skewed.

I personally don't care about my enemies buttholes. I'm ok with them dying peacefully from a single gunshot, or maximum, wrapped in swine skin, but already dead from normal, civilized methods of execution. Because I'm a normal person that doesn't see the need in involving myself with feces and robbing a person of that much of dignity, unless it's a question of many lives and deaths. But orifices of people whose existence I find just plainly distasteful? No.

I think this speaks about the diminished, devolved nature of an anti-facists mental makeup, if they want to castrate you. These people are just a notch above your spear-chucking jig. Just a teeny weensy bit that allowed them to learn how to use a computer a bit. Couple this with extreme righteousness, fueled by the media, by the inherent adherence to all things homosexual - and there you go, this pathetic creature, an antifascist, can't threaten with anything, but with violence directed at your genitalia. Funny, how the same people are talking constantly about womens rights and attacks on gays. But if you're a white nationalist, you're not deserving dignity or manhood.

I don't like Freud. THEY like Freud. But I bet they wouldn't liked to hear what he would've said about this.

Anti-racist isn't a code-word for anti-white. It's a codeword for "anal fixation".

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In other news, shit's goddamn fine. Literature, art, work - all on the fucking ripcurl of the wave. Going to press trip soon, and then next week - new audioblog ahoy. Also, if anyone could tell me how to embed Youtube videos on journals here, I'd be really thankful.

So people, this is sort breaking news and hot shit, so fucking hot that when I read about this, I had like severe laughter-induced convulsions up to the point where I nearly wet myself and vomited from happiness. Happiness puke, yep, that's right.

In any case, you know, me being a white supremacist and all, I get these pinko libfags all over my shit with the same mantra over and over:

"African people are exactly like me and you, they have as much talented people as everywhere else, they're vibrant, and harmonious with nature, and beautiful, and capable of the most wondrous things - and if they don't achieve anything, it's because WHITE MAN IS HOLDING THEM DOWN TO THIS VERY DAY! Racist whites robbed Africa of their riches, sold all the negroid race Einsteins into slavery, DUUUUH!" "POC's are just as smart and intelligent as you, even more, because they're not RAYCISS!".

They're telling every white person that black people are equal, that they are all future doctors, scientists, the cream of the crop of humanity - and the only reason why they arent such NOW, because facts say that blacks have the potential, but not the result, is because of RAYCISSSM everywhere, lack of edumacation and praise for the black race.

Well, I will present to you, my watchers, the hugest slap to the face of SWPL, bleeding-heart egalitarian white shitheads and social justice warriors. I will present to you the real African achievement black people amount to when there is no evil whitey holding their hand and whipping their back, figuratively speaking.

I give you - Spooknig 1, the Ugandan homebrew Space (anal) probe to launch a mouse, and then a black person. The pinnacle of Black teknawlagay!



And no, this is serious shit people. This aerogrill-ricecooker hybrid is the spacecraft Ugandans intend to launch at the nearest forest... sorry, space orbit.

Let's hear from the scientists and venture capitalists themselves:

Uganda will soon launch the first space observer called Cadimella, Capt. Chris Nsamba, the chief executive officer and founder of the African Space Research Program (ASRP), has revealed.

Nsamba was briefing the Vice-President, Edward Ssekandi, who inspected the launch pad of the space observer at Kimaka Airfield in Jinja on Monday.

"This has demonstrated that Ugandans can also participate in sophisticated programmes. This is impressive and the Government will support the association. I am going to brief the President about this," Ssekandi said.

Nsamba revealed that the space probe has self-defence, anti-time missile features, which protect it from being hit by missiles destined to destroy it in case it passes in the space of another country.

After its launch, they will put a mouse in it and will have it lifted to the stratosphere by a helium balloon.

"We shall send a mouse to space. If it comes back alive, it will mean that Uganda is able to send human beings into space and we shall embark on constructing a new space observer that a person can use," Nsamba said

This, my friends, is fucking Hi-tech. Not your dumb iPhones, electric cars, vacuum trains and ISS. This is what creative minds do when they are confronted by lack of resource and funds. You snap a 120mm PC fan and a webcam to a rice-cooker, then break apart some calculators to form solar-panel arreys, scotch-tape it together and voi-la - you have a SOPHISTICATED AIRCRAFT with SELF-DEFENDING ANTI-TIME MISSLE features and then have it launched in space with a mouse on-board with a helium balloon.

Never mind there is no visible defence systems, nevermind that helium balloons cannot into space, never mind it's not even pressurized - awww who am I kidding, why would you pressurize a bean pot - never mind noone know what is this mysterious African weapon such as an anti-time missle? No, the power of Black Hope and Change will charge it right up to greet the motherfucking alien niggaz. And of course, it has defences, because you know, all the jealous whitey and azn nations are gonna target this flying turd-saucer with their ICBMs, because DEY RAYCISS!

Here are some technical specifications of this Ugandan miracle breakthrough:

-Orbit Altitude: Over 176km Above Sea Level
-Orbit Speed Range: 6200km/h
-Life On-board: Mice/Rat
-Re-entry method: 3 phase shoot deployment in ascending order
-Oxygen: 8.3litres
-Number of dake pilots/controllers: 4 persons excluding mission commander
-Space Collection: Will collect dust molecules from space neighborhood for lab analysis in regard to ice age
-Ability: Can be controlled from anywhere in the world
-Re-Entry cooling systems, manual and remotely deployed.
-Anti float in mice chamber -Anti float method: magnetism
-Each command you send to the Cadimella, it talks back to you, it can talk ladies and gentlemen, it can talk back to you as its in space .

(c)

HOWLEE LAWDY NIGGUH! IT CAN RETURN? ANTI-GRAVY-TY WITH DEM FUCKING MAGNETS (HOW DO THEY WORK?) IT CAN TALK TO YA BACK? Like wut? "Im not yo homie nigguh, I beez in spess n shit, ya give comands to yar bitch, dawg!" It say it can talk ladies and gentlement, can it talk them to bed? But most importantly, the general idea is that if this metal bowl can somehow carry a mouse to space, it CERTAINLY can do the same with a human. Can we volunteer Obama to be the first Afronaut?

But yes. This is state of the art, demonstrated here in all it's aluminum foil glory:



Dem buttons, man.

You'll say: - damn Torture-Device, you're a racist, horrible motherfucker, why you come up with this crazy shit to make black people appear dumb and savage? This is most likely a racist white supremacist fraud to cover up the fact that indeed, Africa is moving forward with all her might and becoming the leading power of the world, with all the fucking VIBRANCY in that motherfucker? The unity? The POWER OF DA BLACK MAN COMPELLING YA? Jesus, Torture-Device, it's not like Egypshuns and shiet invented stuff, it's not like Africans had dem universities and brilliant cultural social thingies when we savage whites were bathing once in a lifetime in dirty Europe? It's not like we didn't steal everything from these peaceful minorities who couldn't defend their innovation? This be a fraud, you bigot.

But no. It's fo rizzle - check out the ASRP site, the organization of the African Space Research Programm: [link]



And these are these mighty brains behind the breakthrough, this brilliant spark of black ingeniousity:


Oh these smiling faces, each of them denying the horribly rayciss myth of the Bell Curve. You know these people are gonna launch this space probe with a giant rubber band, and then it, wheezing, would propell itself through the air and vacuum with its 120mm PC fan powered by a piece of buffalo dung. Who needs NASA or Roskosmos?



But hey. We're still told about how black people are great. How they are capable of great things. And this is their great thing when they're not working for some white guy or corp. I mean, jesus. In Russia space flight had been a special thing, given our breakthroughs and contributions to the humanity in this branch of science and industry. We had launched a man in space only 60 years after being a rather technologically backwards agrarian country, that had suffered a devastating war.

And despite all the humanitarian aid and technology supply of Africa, they do this. What is this, but not a testament of difference? And don't tell me this shit sucks because it's a small-team, underfunded project.

This is what black people do on their own: [link]

This is what white people do on their own with limited resources: [link]

The space probe fiasco, and the Skyhawk fiasco - srsly, see the above Youtube video about a Ugandan plane with no rudders, no ENGINE, no NOTHING but a fuselage - is just the testament to the "cargo cult" nature of black people. They just can't into technology.
They try to slap together some Radioshack debris parts together to make it look like the shit the abhorrent whitey does, and they think it will do the exact same thing. Its a CARGO CULT. And dont even try to excuse it with lack of information - these people do have Internet access, they have videocameras, they have cellphone, all that shit, but they have no idea how anything works. They can just smile and say big words like parrots, not really processing whats going on. They are fucking unbelievable.

This is just brilliant. I'm hiccuping still from this invaluable piece of evidence, that so solidly, blantantly stomps the pink-glassed liberal egalitarian fantasies in the soil in pieces. Into the fucking mud. Yes, fuckers, look at this shit, look at it and weep - your favorite disadvantaged minority performs so WELL when the playing field is evened, doesnt it? It so vividly demonstrates the futility of venture and development in the region where these people dwell. They have no shame of their ignorance, no awareness of their cargo cult.

Instead of building the wheel, they try to imitate a plane.

And really - these people, if we're supposedly their descendants, had a headstart on us whites. So why are they lagging behind? Why - and isn't this the answer to this question? The answer that no matter the donations, the aid, the cheating in rules, affirmative action, grants and so on - biology, simple fucking physiology, trumps all of the stupid white libfags cum-crusted dreams and movies and ads about smart and smooth black doctors and scientists. There's their Django, looking in the cam and holding a mock-up piece of shit, announcing it can launch a man in space.


Spooknig 1, this is ground control... we have a problem. Pilot had suffered a cooncussion when launching the probe, over.



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Also, thanks for all the feedback on mah audioblog! Taken everything into processing, so look out for the new and improved rant coming next week)

So, as I had promised, I deliver you my first audioblog/podcast, and there it is:

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Noticed the sound was choppy after the whole recording - gotta get a new headset n mic.

Enjoy, and since it's the first foray, I'm open to suggestions and critique.

Anyway, there's this thing that I feel is important to voice, but I don't wanna drag it on and be too wordy about it.

Basically there's this dude, RamzPaul, he's a right-wing white nationalist conservative vlogger on YTube, who pokes fun at libfags and establishment, the multi-culti PC-tardness and so on, basically satirizes the shit out of it. And I was an old watcher of his vids n shit.

Then, recently, this guy begins bawwing that his vids were linked by some more "radical", "neo-nazi" groups, so immediately this fucker goes defensive-mode and starts bleating "oh no, take down the links, I dun want us RESPECTABLE WHITE NATIONALISTS TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH NEO-NAZI FUCKS" and "NEO-NAZIS ARE ALL AGENT PROVOCATEURS BLUH BLUH".

But that's just the intro to what I want to say, not focus on this guy. The focus is on the WN movement as a whole, with these raging dick-riders thinking they can abstragate themselves from those horrid "neo-nazis" and get their white nationalist utopia just by writing long-ass essays on history and genetics, and that they'll get it by looking at black folk indignantly.

BULLSHIT, you whimpy ass-motherfuckers. You know, it's telling, that these white nationalists are usually pessimistic, they always harp on how "oh noe, we whites are losing the battle" and "oh no, in 50 years europe would be all muslim" and "oh no, we gotta dig ourselves in Texas and stuff" and WHITE GENOCIDE AEHGRWHEHFWIEHFIW. Basically, these respectable, NORMAL people a) think they can win the fight with their limp-wristed academia and b) simultaneously think the battle is already lost.

During all that the sigh and ask where is this white nationalist hero to save their asses from cultural marxist feminazi dildoes and black presidents.

Newsbreak - he's nowhere to be found because you cowardly shits hold unto your government jobs, cozy houses and salaries no less that your average liberal. He's nowhere to be found because you're no less of pussies than those liberals who say they want more diversity and more vibrancy and more Somalian students, but settle in white gated communities and send their kids to white private colleges. These conservative right-winger nuts do the exact same shit - they say they want more racially-aware, fighter-type people, but when they see a lock-n-loaded NS partisan, they chimpout and retract.

That's exactly why we can't have nice things. Because some old, rusty fellas think they're fit to fight a paper war. But listen to the word of a journalist that's been on both sides of the fence - paper war is only as good, as the real fists and guns who give weight to the shitty little pamphlets.

By dissociating yourself with your actual brothers-in-arms, people who are ready to be the grunts and spearhead of this war, you're signing yourself for loosing the battle. Because any tactician or strategist knows that a one-component army is fucking nonsense. That you need the trifecta of land, air and naval superiority to wage war. And you try to win it with what? INDIGNANCE maybe?

"Oh no, these Nazi fucks just turn the public against us, we can't ruin our image and reputation!" - there's this blind, ignorant naiverty. These so-called "normal white-nationalists" still don't get the fact that they already are the enemy, that the public is ALREADY AGAINST them, that their opponents had ALREADY labeled their cautious, polite and respectable asses as white supremacist neo-nazi scum, and they have no say in the matter. Your image is tarnished and ruined the moment you decided to oppose the current paradigm, mingling with "nazis" wont make your case that much worse.

But the desire to segregate does make your case worse. If the degree of radicality and agression is too much for you to take from those who share your base ideas and goals, you shouldn't have raised your voice at all and get into politics.


Thinking that you'll win because you can barricade in your home with all your guns is cute. Thinking that you'll win because you'll make people "aware" is even cuter. Nothing is gained or won by defense  - being on the defense already signifies loss. Only offense is a viable tactic. But who will do the offense for you? Farmers? Rednecks? White-collar deep-undercover-corporates? Cops? The army? Yeah... To cure the sickness you still have to spill some blood.

Way to shoot yourself in the foot, jackasses.

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In other news, I was right - Christopher Dorner, the black anti-gun librul-hero was done good in a short time and just 1 more additional death. But look - the liberal media doesn't try to dissociate themselves with the Token Black, the mass consensus of college-bound electorate is not to denounce him and dissociate themselves from his extremism. Then why the fuck you pieces of shit rail on the National Socialists?

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And to end it on a positive note - so I WILL be doing audioblog-podcast stuff next week. Already ran a test through some people, seems my English and narration is fine enough to be intelligible. Now, I'd like some mass suggestions on what topic should I focus in the upcoming audioblog. Fire away with suggestions.

While everyone is going all crazy about the LADP cop-killer Chris Dorner, I look at it through the prism of hypocristy.

The deal is that unlike with all the previous rampages - if you can call 3 corpses on his list an actual rampage - this guy gets excused by the media because he was bullied at work and "witnessed injustice to the black community and himself". You know, a cart blanche for murder is just splendind. When this guy gets caught - and he WILL get caught, because he's clearly not a planner but a psychotic random nigga - watch how the usually intolerant to cop-killing Murrica will try to justify Dorners murders on "institutional racism" and "white privilege". Oh, the circus that would ensue.

Yeah, white privilege. This guy got into fucking Marines. I, in my own lily-white country didn't get into special forces and had to stick with motorized infantry. Yet this piece of shit got into the elites, worked there with half-success and then still whined he was underprivileged.

It seems that all you need to do to get off the hook when committing crimes is to blame white people for "pushing you", to blame "guns" for corrupting you, to blame "racism" for destabilizing your psyche. I'm mad because this should work for everyone, if it works for blacks. I'm for equality of excuses. I'm trying to come up with a manifesto that would totaly whitewash - no pun intended - the heinous acts that I might commit.

I'm still thinking about it. Maybe if I label myself a Muslim or a transethnic nigger inside? I don't know.

You know, I'm ok with cops. Back in the day, sure, during rallies there were unpleasant things happening, but in general I always understood with what amount of bullshit they have to go through - caught between the hammer and the anvil, so to speak. It were cops who, when I was drunk and got into custody, prevented me from drowning on my own fucking vomit. I'll never go ACAB or someshit like this, they're the inner military, and military is military. I respect it.

But hey - if the guy felt this way, it's normal. I understand that people can get fed up with some shit. I feel fed up with some shit. The only thing in this dynamic that I'm interested in, is why THIS guy's reasoning is ok, and WILL be invoked in the court as a excusatory motive, and say, Anders' Breivik's reasoning was considered not only offensive and making his case worse, but also made him appear crazy?

Why is it ok and honorable to kill people because you're fed up with your colleagues calling your a nigger or acting in a way you presume offensive to a non-white ethnicity or someshit, but if you kill people because you're fed up with them KILLING YOUR PEOPLE, trashing your life and threatetning your existence in your own damn country, that's warranting a more severe response?

For example. The latest MVD (russian law enforcement) statistcs unveiled that an overwhelming majority of heavy crime - about 60% (murder, aggravated assault and rape) in Moscow is carried out by illegal and legal work migrants from Central Asia and Caucasus. Somehow we're expected to swallow it. If I went out and started killing every non-russian in sight because chances are that they are criminals, would I get cheered on by the western and even russian media? NO. I wouldn't. In fact, if I was caught and sentenced I'd get a bigger sentence, not to mention the cries of "racism, racism" all around. Hate crime.

But this dude goes out and kills his fellow cops due to presumed "corruption" in the LAPD and he gets appraised. It's no hate crime that he targeted only white people, because that's why we deserve? It's not strange that he gets appraised by his people, of course not. We did praise Breivik, didn't we? But if there's two sides of the coin, it means that black and whites are in an actual civil war - a quiet civil war that just gets fueled by the fact that it's covered up. I just wish it went full-blown out in the open so we white people should stop pretending and pushing this shit under the carpet, while endangering out safety.

Blacks hate our guts, and we hate theirs - this is just the rare cases when this doesnt get swept under the rug.

In any case, Chris Dorner is a funny fellow. He served in active duty, worked in LAPD, and killed 3 people while in his manifesto he promised to bring war. I feel sorry for the dude - he wanted real action, but fucked it up.  All his training and expertise amounted to a poof, to NOTHING. Typical of black people - lots of chest pumping and calling yourself king, and as a result we see just a tiny little fart.

Niggaz can't fight for shit. There's zero planing, a messy and ineffective execution. And then social watchdogs ask why there is so little "diversity" in special forces. There's your answer - a trained killer that pales in comparison to civvies like Brievik and the crazy-ass James Holmes. It's just golden and I'm laughing my ass off despite the tragedy of the situation.

And I dunno - how funny it is that this libertarian murderer is PRO GAY and ANTI-GUN? I mean, I don't understand what kind of mess these people have in their heads. But then, liberals and libertarians are quite crazy. They only pretend to be all about peace and equality and tolerance - and they fly off the handle the second their masturbatory fantasies of percieved oppressions are negated.
People love to bring up Timothy McVeigh as a horrific right-wing terrorist, and completly forget on Jim Jones - a marxist that had cited the Bible to be "made up by white men to subjugate people of color", that had raised black kids and overall propagated mixture and liberal socialist values. Not only Jim Jones played a part in assasinating a US Congressman, but he manipulated NINE HUNDRED PEOPLE to kill themselves in a mass suicide ritual.

That's what liberals are. Black or white, doesn't matter. Delusional, messianic, rejective of reality and deadly. Deadly not in a cold, professional way - but in a way of scrappy IED assembled by a dirty guerilla assface.

I'm trying to come up with a valuable excuse for myself, when and if I'll ever fly off the handle. What kind of "ism", what kind of bullying that can justify the actions and mindset I have? I think, and find none - after all, I'm an able-bodied white male, impervious to feelings and emotion. I guess I'll have to bear the full brunt of guilt and responsibility. Or lie that I'm gay.

Well, white people rarely shy from responsibility for their actions. And blacks have a history on blaming it on their pinky controlled by a witch doctor through vile machinations.

Oh, the modern world... You just need to find an emotion-laden word to turn zero into hero. Even when the nigga hero can't shoot for shit.

So, a comprehensive guide to how I view the world, as requested by a number of people, who's mental capabilities are below average. Heh. Kidding. Well what's a blog for if not to explain some shit?

My views on race, ethnicity and history

So, the correct lablel would be a white supremacist. While "white supremacy" is often associated with being an insane racist yelling "kill all the niggers, all the j00s", it's not exactly about that. Killing niggers and jews and whoever else is like the cherry on top of the whole idea, a last resort if you will.

No, when I'm saying that I'm a white supremacist, I mean a very specific thing - the reality of the modern world. This reality is the following: caucasian civilization owns and runs this shit. We're everywhere. Our white european technology, religion, methodology, philosophy and science outlasted and outdone everything else. We are the leaders and the cement. In the turmoils of the last 2 millenia we came on top and made everyone else follow our guidline. You can talk all you want about ancient asian, negroid and so on civilizations in the stone age - it doesn't matter. Successul asian civilizations that we have now are not asian - they're managed by white european guidelines and methodology. So are everyone else. We have brought electricity, cheap food, housing, computing, logistics and globalization to the world. Not attempted - but did. To deny that this world is a white world is useless. When you send a mail, when you pick up food in the grocery store, when you sit down in your car or brush your teeth, when you pay at a restaurant or go watch a movie - you're immersed into whitness.

This is the reality, and this is white supremacy. Acknowledging and upholding the high standards of modern living.

Now, considering race... Unlike many, I won't pretend I know how anthropolgy or genetics work, especially in times when research is kept under the carpet. I'm a race realist grunt - ie, looking back at white supremacy we can argue WHY it happened so that caucasians got ahead, but... I won't argue because I don't have the credentials. I can only derive conclusions from observation and history. And these two things say pretty much that non-whites are non-competitors and lagging behind. In simpler terms - if other races were as good, we'd be living in Blacktopia now. Because we don't, it means that not everyone is equal. And if people are unequal, then a) why pretend they are, and b) we have to use that to our advantage and safety.

I don't hate blacks when they are in their native african territories. I don't hate asians when they are in their homelands. I begin to dislike them when they carry their malpractice to the territory I inhabit and work on. I know that it IS malpractice, because if their homelands weren't bad, they wouldn't leave. Two and two, simply. I'm against mixing oil and water. If they don't like white supremacy that much, well I guess all these vibrant and diverse races with all their collective brilliance can go build a spacecraft and found their own awesome multicult haven with blackjack and underage hookers on Mars. No whitey to hold ems down.

Therefore, I believe that apartheid is the only solution to the world's problems. Not necessarily a draconian apartheid, but apartheid non the less. So, when people of ethnicities that had proved themselves for millenia to be failures, move in and start demanding shit, I feel completely justified in being a racist asshole, so they'd go away and not spoil my turf. Racism is the only normal reaction to the displacement and disadvantaged treatment of titular nations.

I believe that the non-white world should deal with it's issues itself or perish. And that any aggression, attitude or hostility in general against whites should be answered threefold.

I also think that genocide is desirable in a purely evolutionary sense. Animal sub-species do it all the time.

My views on politics and societal structure

Let me preface this with the following. A lot of people think that right-wing conservatism is uncompatible with National-socialism. And that socialism, in many of right-wingers and nationalists eyes is some horrid evil and CULTURAL MARXISM ERMAHGERD.
So, everyone seems to miss one vital thing - almost every modern society is socialist in it's core. That is, if we define socialism as an ideology that demands a state to take care of it's citizens and provide for their needs or safety via provision of jobs and taxes. Basically, even a capitalist society is a socialist one. Probably a truely un-socialist society would be one, where the political system is monarchism or feudalism, but in the developed world, no such are left.

Because we're living in 21st century, I see National-socialism as a form of state where the socialist preferences are targeted only towards the nations citizens. Simple as that. A nationalist state that provides for it's citizens when these citizens meet the requirements for well, citizenship. Ergo, the state protects local business, protects itself on the global arena and ensures that this state is strong, economically, demographically and so on. For the people, by the people, eagle. I think that free grade-school education, rudimentary, yet functioning, free medical care, limited censorship and caring for the elderly are good thigs. The question is, how much must be sacrificed for all that.

That's it, nothing more. Well, though, three more things. First, I am against the idea of a nanny state. In my opinion, a state must maintain a balance between taxation and social security. And second, I believe in the concept of "earned" citizenship, and that's possibly the most "radical" of my otherwise mild views on society. That is, I believe that only those people who were filtered through a set of milestones (military service, higher education, some barrier of income, etc) are getting the "citizen" status and all the associated social benefits. Or we could call them "first class citizens" or some other name. Only these people should be able to vote, and only these people and their families in such a state structure are granted protections. This system should also be mobile - crimes should strip the status off, and achievements - elevate towards it.

And the third thing - I strongly oppose egalitarism. I believe in a state that aknowledges the disparity between people, a state that rewards those who benefit the nation, and ignore and neglects those who mooch and parasitize. I think that the idea of equality of opportunity and even more so, the absolutely abhorrent idea of equality of result, must be abolished.

One more big point - I value a nation's sovereignity. For example - I don't particularly like middle eastern regimes, peoples and traditions. I outright DISLIKE them. But I feel that no nation should have a "carte blanche" on involving themselves with such countries affairs unless there's some direct shit going on between them.

My views on religion and science

I'm not a religious person and I don't belong to any denomination. I also firmly believe in secularism, ie the separation of church and state on a FORMAL level. However, and notice that I underlined the "formal" part, I understand that a nation and ethnicity are complex structures that have produced religion in accordance to the mass psychology of the nation, and are in return, formed by the resultant product.  Therefore, I somewhat reluctantly protect Christianity. A lot in Christianity I see as downright harmful to the white man - however, history showed that Christianity played a big role in our advancement, so there I am - a non-theist aknowledging it's integral importance.

Another thing I'm against is the ongoing attempt to put science and religion on polar ends of some proverbial stick. People who do that are total morons and should shut about both of those topics. Religion and belief play one role in the society. Science - a completely other role. I'm against dei-fying science and against religion being made into one, too.
Considering science, I do believe that some of it's branches are heavily politicized, and that blind belief in anything slightly science-like breeds pseudo-science crap and the same shitty religious fanaticism, only of a different color.

My views on social justice and current affairs

Personally, I think we're standing on the precipice of some great societal change. Our civilization, however great it is, has lost it's momentum and vector.

Instead of going to space, instead of evolving into something more refined, we're trying to figure out how to make homos feel better, "fight against racism and women rights", poor money in the black asshole called Africa and the growing numbers of worthless hungry mouths demanding shit from us because of some "privilege". Achievers get accused of success, talentless hacks got cuddled. Everyone's got a story to tell - we all heard about it, from the Queen of England to the hounds of hell.

The whole Apocalypse hysteria year after year, the fascination with zombies is the reflection of this subconcious worry - we desperately want a condition where this system that allows failure to grow and prosper, to finally crash. We want to get our hands on these hordes of human waste, and to act with real justice and fairness. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, in the end. It's like a tightening screw - one day it will fly off from the tension. I feel it will happen soon, when inner and outer pressure builds up, and we won't be able to hide behind our comfort and feel-goods, when the ugly reality rears it's head up.

The ugly reality that the 1% can no longer feed 99% of human-shaped shit. Untill then, it will just get stronger, this public stench of misery, self-victimization and demands. Brace yourself - recess is coming. and clash of civilizations is inevitable.

What bother's me the most though is that we have lost the native to white people idea of constant self-improvement. This drive for Nietzche's ubermensch was replaced by a culture of suffering and complaint, of placid acceptance and wound-licking. No, I believe in hard work and betterment of man, of reaching limits and ideals, through blood and sweat. That's what makes better people and better future, not pandering to the lowest denominators.


Now, to answer some common questions:

"How can you be a Russian and a National-Socialist? Hitler hated slavic people!"

Easy. Let's look at this question in complex.
First off, National-socialism didn't contain "hate" against other ethnicities. What it did, was describe what an ideal Germany should be, from a social and economical point of view. This ideology-political system sought to put Germany and germanic ideology on top of all others, and the racialist talk was addendum to justify the cause. Therefore, National-socialsm in a sense is no different than liberalism (tried to describe an ideal France) or communism/marxism. These are pure ideologies. So, if we russians had first absorbed Christianity, then Monarchism (which was foreign to us too), marxism (German once again) and then capitalistic socialism (American), why can't the same be done with National-socialism or fascism?

Oh right. Because "Hitler hated slavic people". This is a two-fold story. A lot of people hated slavic people. First of, Germans from the beginning of all those Crusade thingies - great example of intra-Christian fighting. Then Swedes who tried to bite off land from us. Napoleon Bonaparte, who still is hailed in France, hated Russian People. Americans STILL hate slavic people, Cold war and Serbian war, remember those? It's natural. Nations fight for land and resource, leaders rally their men against others and find justifications for aggression. Meh. History's all about it. That would be if it was so...

But, the idea that Hitler wanted to exterminate all russians is skewed heavily. The racial purity leaders of the Third Reich were EDUCATED in Russia. Hitler called Russians a "great people", and though he stated that russians were historically overperforming only under Germanic rule (que our queens), the talk of subjugation only began to emerge after Wehrmacht's back was broken in the Eastern front and desperate propaganda rhetoric developed. Somehow, when you hear about the "Hitler wanted to genocide all Slavs", you never hear about ROA, the Russian Freedom Army that operated under Wehrmacht, or the more widely-known Molotov-Ribbentrop pact of friendship, and etc.

If wartime propaganda was integral to political ideologies, I guess then Vietnamese should blow up all american's on sight.

"So, I'm black/asian/jewish/transethnic, do you wanna kill me/how will you judge me?"

Yes, I do want to kill people that ask such questions.

"If you lived in Third Reich Germany, you'd be killed for making such degenerate art, who's clever now?"

Firstly, history doesn't know speculation. Secondly, if I lived in Third Reich Germany, chances are you wouldn't live at all. Thirdly - probably I'd be working happily in Der Sturmer.

"So, what's the difference between a National-Socialist and a Neo-Nazi?"

Neo-Nazis exist only in feel-good american movies about brave magical blacks and oppressed minorities. A national-socialist is a real person with a real occupation, life, and so on. A Neo-Nazi is an urban myth monster. Sometimes we National-socialists call each other Nazis, but hey - it's like the word "nigger", bahahaha. Only we can use it.

"You're not a real National-socialist. All you people wear gasmasks, listen to angry music, like Warhammer, and act all edgy. Real National-socialists attend super-sekrit meetings and hack ADL. You mad yet faggot?"

You're right. I never outgrew my rebellious phase. This urge to go out and paint a backwards swastika on the nearest trashcan is overpowering me right now.

"How can someone be so angry and stupid in our time! Omaigawsh, only what I believe is teh truf truf!"

I don't know how. I never pushed throught the agenda that I'm an all-knowing wise sage. What I always underlined is that I belive that every person's reality is warped by their experience, and I'm no exclusion. In my point of view, I'm not stupid, and I'm sure that's what EVERYONE thinks about themselves. However, I'm fairly certain that my experiences somewhat exceed the experiences of an average twenty-something white european middle-class person, hence why I open my mouth and type words on the internet.

"How can you be a member of the press and support National-Socialism! Totalitarian regimes were against free speech!"

There's a little paradox about free speech and freedom in particular that was disovered by the USSR and USA simultaneously after WW2. This paradox is almost Orweillan in nature. I call it "The Ship Paradox", and I'm very proud of it.

Firstly, why it's called "The Ship Paradox"? There's a saying in Russian - "How you call the ship is how it will float" (Как корабль назовешь, так он и поплывет). In translation it means, that how you name something influences the perception on what's being named. That's the inevitable working of human psyche.

In relation to the topic at hand, both these superpowers discovered, that through mass-media its very easy to deploy certain values and virtues as inarguable and "default", and by invoking them, anchor the rightness of the naming in people's names. Basically, the word "freedom" ("love", "liberty", "democracy") are anchored in our conciousness as inarguably good and desired concepts. And by attaching these concepts to ourselves, it makes us feel good and accomplished, as Maslow once pointed out.  We like to think about ourselves and our collectives in a positive manner, it's a human trait. And it's an exploitable trait.

Governments of democratic countries utilized this principle to the fullest. The american public, in particular, was hammered for decades with the memes that "we are the land of the free", "we are for freedom and world peace", "we are the good guys", "we are the free", over and over, through all means and mediums. This became a default. The USSR did the same. En masse - not on a level of a individual - people do believe that. They don't QUESTION it. The goverments attached the lable of the "freedom defender" to itself and floated with it proudly.

The biggest perk? You can do all kinds of shit in the name of such an abstract and positive concept.

However, that's just NAMING. Freedom, and freedom of speech, in these cases exist with a plethora of "if's". What is "freedom of speech" here in Russia, is "hate speech" in USA (and the notion of hate speech itself defies the idea of free speech), and what is "freedom of speech" in USA is a capital offence in North Korea. So, it's all meaningless constructs.

The ideas of freedom are as fluid as diarrhea. I don't believe in freedom. There are just cases when some thoughts might be transmitted because someone permitted so, and vice versa.

"You're hella wimpy, and all those guns you have mean you're weakass. I betcha you'd run away from big black guys, how did you even function in the army, did you do paperwork, hurr hurr?"

Yeah. This question/accustation. A lot of people who say this are american. If you don't know, from in the 50's a lot of US citizens began eating food, made out of animals injected with growth hormones. Farms sought for business effectiveness, enlarged animals for more meat. In any case, it's a well-documented fact that this accelerated US citizen growth, including the following generations. That's not the case in all other countries around the world.

In any case, in modern combat handling a gun is very important, even more important that raw physical strength. Yeah, carrying gear around means you have to be quite sturdy, but again - not in all armies you're required to lag around 20 kilos of gear.

"Why do you hate blacks and homosexuals? They can't help what they are and you shouldn't judge people on their skin color/sexual orientation!"

I can't help myself judging people. It's just how I am, ahahaha. But seriously, what CAN we judge people for? Noone seems to answer that one. In any case, I like statistic and big numbers theory. In the wild, when the ancient man saw a bigass wolf-pack, he didn't break out into musing "hmm, there's no clear indication that these wolves wanna rip me to shreds. Maybe they're just taking a walk? I shouldn't judge them all as a pack anyway, they're all free individuals. I'll just wait and see - ouch, one bit my leg - well doesn't matter, what if it's his pack way to greet a human?". No, the man fled or fought, because his glance judgment of the wolves said "you're most likely gonna be food, these fellas would rip you to bits".

Same with humans. Our passing judgement, coupled with our knowledge about people, both personal and impersonal from other sources, is usually correct. So - judge away.

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That's all, folks!

Something hilarious, fucktarded and disturbing happened to me recently, like out of bad, ill-done american comedy that I decided to share with you for laughs and tell you how the IT industry is actually lulzy.

So, a while ago I was working at this telco expo - me, a few other reporters and our sales managers, who have set up the booth and stand for our print media department, and promoted, in addition to the online portal, a few magazines, research bulletins and other IT analyst stuff we do. The day was short, so the sales managers left early and left me "in charge" of the booth, while I was finishing writing my news article. I hopped on a bar stool near the stand, the magazines I was supposed to hand out splayed before me, everythings cool. Our booth, aside from the stand and some shelves for the printed production, had a table with like, four chairs, located slightly behind me, near our group's banner.

As I was writing my stuff, I was handing out magazines to people passing by, remembering my good ol' glory days at mobile phone retail, everything was going swell - the expo was near closing, other exponents began dis-assembling their booths, and I thought I was gonna leave soon too.

Then these two people waddle up to my stand. One, a short, slightly plump senior woman, carrying two large stuffed bags - stuffed with merch and gifts from various other booths. The other, a high, pasty and chubby dude in his late 20s, extra-dumbfaced, with that whispy "I'm-a-retard" moustache and a look of total, sheep-like bewilderment and exhaustion - he had bags too. I figure it's the woman's son. Both have the expo badges.

They ask me if we have calendars. I saw that we don't. They proceed to check out the magazines, I urge them to check them out and take a few.

Which they do. Then the woman's eye falls on the table. Now, the table was covered in flyers, there was gift plastic luggage tag lying on it, my cheap plastic business card holder, and a Mars candybar that one of my coworkers left for me, since I was running around the expo all day hungry as fuck and the nice chick decided I should have it. The woman squints, and asks if she can have the luggage tag, which was a present given to a sales manager by some software company, but he left it cuz he didn't need it. I say "sure, why not", and cringe at her awful hillbilly accent. From her looks it's evident she's a "peripheral", something we muscovites call less sophisticated and lowclass people from the regions.

The woman sends her sons to collect the badge, he waddles towards it reluctantly, and then the woman asks if they can sit at the table for a while.

Again, my generosity kicked in - I figured they were tired from going round the expo all day, so I said - "go on", and turn back to writing the article. With half an ear listened to their chatter, didn't comprehend much, and went on with typing. Then, in like five minutes, I heard them stand up and leave.

I sat at the stand for about 10 more minutes, and then, deciding I typed enough, started to swivel on my stool - and caught site of the table.

It was CLEAR. No luggage tag, naturally. But NO TORTURE-DEVICE'S BUSINESS CARD HOLDER. NO CANDY BAR, EITHER.

At first, I was speechless. I walked to the table, walked around it, peeked beneath in hopes that the items rolled there - nope.

The fucknuggets even took a bunch of shitty flyers.

I mean, okay, expo's are big, but this wasn't some fucking fur expo or washing machine expo - no, a professional, international telco one, with software and hardware vendors, carriers, whatever you want! And some of the visitors were sticky-hand brain-dead cleptomaniacs! This ain't no fucking professional tech community!

I just want to know this  - what kind of insane dumbfuck steals a PVC BUSINESS CARD HOLDER and some dude's CANDY-BAR? Worst thing, is that those cards were important - about 30 of my new business aquaintances, not to mention about 10 of my own. And I fucking NEED those contacts. Plus, I have somewhat of a collector's attitude towards business cards - I collect them, I cherish them, I like how they're all different and neat and that I can flip through them and remember the people more vividly than when it's in a phonebook or something, a viable piece of a meeting I had with a valuable news source.

And these idiotic mentally ill people appropriated HOURS of my hard work at the expo! I lamented all over the business cards and cursed the hillbilly shitfaces. Hope they choke to death on the cards when they try to eat them, because it's the only thing these pieces of mentally insufficient shits can do with em.

They took even the candy bar. THE MOTHERFUCKING CANDYBAR.


The horror, the horror...

Something quite unexpected happened.

Basically, some time ago, pointed me to this contest, "Train your brain" that was going on dA under the sponsorship of "The Art Department" , a well-known in the professional artist community virtual art school. The contest that went on dA - [link] - had several categories of admission, and it caught my friend's eye, since the prizes offered an ability to get masterclasses and online workshops from this well-established educational group and quite a few big names in the industry.

Now, as you know, I'm not a professional artist or even a person who capitalizes on their art, plus after browsing entries I've seen the high level of industrial standards in the work and hadn't any illusions. But the contest looked so decent, that I submitted a few pieces purely to get exposure. And promptly forgot about my submissions.

Yesterday, however, on the Journal portal the journal announcing the winnders of the TAD "Train your brain" contest which I clicked on out of curiousity, the winning 1st prize artwork for the category of "2D Entertainment" seemed was so bland and undeserving of the 1st place, that I couldnt help to click on the journal announcing 2nd and 3rd prize winners, just to see my suspicion of those works being better.

I clicked, and scrolled through the winners, and there, a familiar shape appeared. MY OWN FUCKING ARTWORK OMG JESUS ON A SHITSTICK - [link].

Holy fuckballs, I won a 3rd prize in 2D Entertainment of a more or less serious graphics art contest with this -   - and I'm super-excited about it.

The prize is an online class course in art of my selection for 16 weeks, 3 hours a week, which is pretty neat and which I intend to share the knowledge of with others. There was an idiocy on the contest inhibitors though that they made NO notice to the winners of the fact that they won, but meh.

It's just that this is pretty ironic - entering a contest knowing you'd not win for the heck of it, but still win. And not in some circle-jerk user-inhibited contest, but something serious and professional. I'm flabbergasted.

So, holidays have passed, and it's time for a New Years resolution or something like that.

First things first - whoppity-doo, I've reached 555, 000 views and then some lately, would you look at that. Well, even tho some number was never my goal, but knowing your art and asshatery generated half a million clicks is sorta cool. I'd like to take this journal space to address my ahem, loyal watchers - all 30 of you that periodically affirm your existence - and thank for the, kh-kh, support and urgh, yeah, support.

No seriously tho, thanks for checking my stuff out. I'd also like to approach the topic of people getting the wrong impression about my openess to communication. Some people feel that they are entitled to get responses from me via the note system in shortest times possible, or that on Skype I'd be leading long-winded convos about my political beliefs and shit. No. I love to talk, that's why all the channels are open, but that doesn't mean that I do that 24/7 and that if you're some unknown to me person you can simply barrage in and demand conversations in this manner. My time, however arrogant that sounds, is fucking valuable, and being cozy with strange internet fagtards is low on the priority list. If I'm available, I'm available - if not, well, till next time. It's funny how people get offended when I don't respong to their messages or say "sorry bud, I'm not gonna discuss profound shit with you cuz it's the first time exchanging messages with ya, why not try small-talk first?"

Guess internet melts people's brains off.

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Speaking of time and values. During the past couple of months I've made some decisions pertaining my career and future, and I'd like to share with those who are interested in the info, that I've decided to get an International Press Card in roughly a year's time. I'll be getting recommendations to get the card, upping my work credentials and all the jazz - to get it you need recommendations from acclaimed journalists in the field and a 3-year work experience in one chosen field of journalism, so I'll be working towards that goal. The international press card perks offers lots of perks, the most massive being an easier access to getting jobs aboard and working as a reporter aboard.

Once I get it, though - that's the major twist -  I'll be going to change my field of work. Yes, that's right. Point is, I see that soon the IT market would stagnate, probably suffer another Dotcom bubble burst, and in a years time probably I'd work out all my possibilities in this area. So my future goal is to move from IT-journalism which I'm doing now, to military journalism, where the press card would be a handy asset. I decided that with the connections and experience I have now and will have in a year forward, I have a high chance of requalifying into a field military reporter, traveling around the world, doing actually important stuff. Given my knowledge of foreign languages, military background and training, reporter experience and stuff, I'm pretty sure I'll get somewhere with it.

It was actually what I was supposed to do when I finished my education, but fate decided otherwise - now, however, I'm certain I can do it. This is something very major, a major change in my life I'm preparing, so it's really inspiring to keep focus on that. It won't be easy since I'm not the only one that would apply, and younger people too, but I believe I have lots of edges to assist me over other potential reporters.

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There's also goals I set for this year in the art department as well. I love improving my art and trying out new shit, so there's a few routes I'd be taking this year:

- First and foremost, a forray into 3D. In recent days I've tried out Zbrush, and man, am I fucking made for this? I fucking am. The first tryouts went a lot smoother than I predicted, and that's just after skimming a few tutorials and getting briefly accustomed with the software. I'm looking to make full-fledged concept art, and, more importantly, to begin using self-made 3D concepts as underpaintings for 2D works, that would drastically improve my techniques.

- Secondly, I'll be returning to Photoshop. I realized that lately I've been severely limiting myself with Painter only, and that I need to study modern rough-brush speedpaint techniques with the help of Photoshop. So, gonna work on that.

- Thirdly, expansion to professional art-sites. That one's tricky, though. I've already made up accounts on sites like CGhub, but, because I'm not really a professional or striving to make a buck on my work, what drives me is instant gratification in form of feedback on my art. Professional sites are a lot more "slower" than dA, and juggling several accounts and being equally active on them while having art as a hobby when I have a time-consuming fulltime job is difficult. However, as I understood, professional sites have a more comprehensive aggregation of tutorial material, and critique, though scarces, is of more quality than on dA. Somehow I'll have to figure out how to establish myself on pro online art platforms.

And speaking of expansion, there's plans for my written stuff as well. I'll be going to apply to editorials of such right-wing sites like Amren, Countercurrents, Vdare and such. You'd ask why US-centric media outlets, and not Russian? Well, because when writing about something detached from you, it always turns out better since you're not as emotionally invested in it. Secondly, the race-realist scene here in Russia is a) plagued by absolutely insane folk, b) Underdeveloped and formed by only one person, due to the fact that the question doesn't stand out as sharp for Russians as it does for white Americans. In a decade the situation might change, but now there's too much prols in the movement, and too little thinkers. Seeing that I'm not able to maintain two functioning blogs at the same time and dA isn't really the best choice of political platforms, all I can do is occasionally write for sites where the politics are the focus. So that's what I'll be doing.

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In other news, my long-time pal and co-conspirator, the Samsung Galaxy Note phablet, died on New Years eve, which prompted me to buy a - drumroll - Windows Phone. I got the HTC 8X, an absolutely stunning thin-unibody, HD-screendazzling slab of hardware, and I need to say - Microsoft, you're the bro. The WP8 OS is sleek, smooth and down to the point. No needless bells&whistles of Android, no drudgery of iOS. Perfect for a PHONE.

So yeaah... Having a bit of throat problems atm, getting ready to return back to work, doing arts inspired by Giger and shit as always, doodling on the tablet, pissing fantards off. To finish this entry with a piece of drama, have a look at a spazzing ponyfucker Imperial fanboy telling me to not comment on my own art: [link]
Funny enough, speaking about fandom, I've been quite plagued by dumbfucks and assfaces, which began to result in the fact that I've started drawing shit - often quite profoundly - just to make everything differently, in reaction and piss people off. Which isn't good, when I think about it.

So, let's talk about some non-politisized shit.

First thing first: Peter Jackson's "The Hobbit" is coming up, and being the derp I am, I didn't know it was supposed to be trilogy. What the fuck. How do you drag a really concise and linear (until the end) plot into THREE TWO-HOUR MOVIES? HOOOOOW? Jackson. The fuck you're doing. Jackson. STAHP.

On my part, I'll be a happy drunkard for the next week, since corporate parties are kicking in. Besides drinking and shit, this also means that presents from companies start flowing – this New Year's tradition of showering journalists with mostly useless, but sometimes pretty nifty gifts is why I like industrial IT journalism. People trying to please you, it's so nice.

I really hope that nVidia, Huwaei or Microsoft pack something in Ded Moroz's bag for me)

Speaking of presents, my birthday is coming up this here Sunday, and this year I'm so updated with gadgets and gear SWAG that all I could think of in terms of giving myself is a hooker and a Samsung hi-fi system.

Yerp. But there's still my humble wishlist:


Yes, I want a Windows Phone and a Nokia. But, my current Galaxy Note is still live and kicking so it'd be too dumb to sell it while it's scratched and not in mint condition. So guess this black matte slab of WinPhone beauty is up to next year.


Tactical gloves, Blackhawk, awww yisss. Realized I need some after going to the shooting range last week. Been freezing my fingers off.


And the up-coming hit – a civilian (semi-auto) version of Kalashnikov AK-12. When this fucker was introduced to hit the markets in 2013, it made me postpone the acquisition of a Saiga, so now patiently waiting and collecting funds for it.

From guns to gaming. Damn, been replaying Spec Ops again, with the supervision of Brian Keogh's excellent novel-length essay about the game, "Killing is Harmless" - thanks to (aka WM) who've sent me the PDF. Google that shit, it's worth it.

Parallely been playing some of dat "Hitman: Absolution" and "Halo 4", but in careful doses, because they're my main gaming attractions for the upcoming 3-week vacations. What can I say – great games insofar, but I have a feeling that Spec Ops spoiled a lot of fun in gaming for me.

Speaking about vacation – can't wait to ski, and to finish all the art shit I've been postponing, including – YES – giftart that I've been lazily scribbling under the workload at my editorial. So expect epic shit rolling after New Years, after I sober up. Speaking of it, I'm gonna attempt a "Redraw This after X Years" meme and keeping my resolution, I'm drawing more and more on my Note 10.1 tablet and uploading this shit.

Hrm. Another thing of interest – I have Skype now, complete with a Plantronics gaming headset (courtesy of , hehe), so I'm available for some DUH REAL LIFE chatting and shit. You're all stalkers, and this is crazy, but here's my msn tag – live:kombatxunit88 – so Skype me, maybe?

And speaking of all this shit, here's two promotions, be sure to tell the artists how much they rock:

(printing this badass piece when I get my hands on the editorial's plotter in A3)

I don't have much time to follow the impact my media presence has, but it seems other people – particularly creepy, stalkerish people do. From them I learn a lot of shit, get tips for trolling and other stuff.

Likewise, today another my followers dug up this: - [link].

I avoid Tumblr like the plague. I've made an account there a few years ago when I was banned or someshit, but I'm a conservative person and I really don't like having a shitton of online platforms to work on. Ain't nobody got time for dat. Aint nobody with a full-time job I mean, which explains why a lot of dA artists also have a heavy presence on that blogging site. In the time where I first attempted to make a blog there to the present moment, this LJ-wannabe venture turned into the best internet hugbox for the poor, oppressed OWS-inclined hipsters.

Whatever. So of course, I took a look at the link, and giggled a bit. Sure enough, I'm quite aware that all these people and names popping up in the "recent visitors" panel all the time belong to such whiners. They post on my frontpage the heartbreaking "OMG I LURVS UR ART BUT UR A ST00PID NATZI I HATE UR ASS". That's nothing new and nothing particularly surprising.

It's absolutely fine to connect the artists personality to the art he or she produces, and have that influence your perception. I'd be a hypocrite if I said I'm somehow different in that regard – after I learned that Larry Wachowski chopped off his peen and now celebrates trannies as Lara Wachowski, I doubt I'd ever see "The Matrix" again. And I loved that movie. Well, no more – it's forever marred by the fact it's made by a Polish dude with fake tits. I'm not ashamed of saying it.

But anyhow. This isn't about that. It's about "edginess", which is being repeated in that cute little tumblr post all the time like a chewed-up tape.

People throw the "edgy" at me all the time, perhaps in hopes I'd react to it and start yelling that I'm not.

Well no. I'm edgy alright, in more dimension that one, those on dA who know me a bit closer, can attest to that. I'm not only edgy, not only a sinner in that regard, but I'm also REBELLIOUS. OMG. What an affront to the society. Punks not dead, fyi.

Ahahah. So. Edgy. I started to think about why people try to use it like an insult, like an undermining of someones views.  How come the same people that say, put the Christian Cross in a jar of piss and call it art don't get called "edgy"? How come people who fake mental illnesses and proclaim they have bipolar disorder with a violent alter-ego are not edgy? And if the Holy Grail, the Homosex, is so looked down upon THE MAN AND SOCIETY, how come all those ass-crawlers from the pro-gay-rights movement aren't negatively "edgy?"

Oh right. Because this is "permitted protest".

A strange shift somehow befell the Western society. Suddenly, being "uncomfortable" for others was no longer cool. Punks are actually dead, their image taken by antifa hacks and fashionistas. The "IN" thing, what all the cool kids are after, is being complacent and whiney. They do protest, but their protest is only focused on supporting those things the government had marked as "acceptable". They protest against the rich – but not against Apple. They demand rights for gays and POCs (People of Crap), but they don't give a shit about anyone else. Feminism, social justice – this protest movement is SANCTIONED. It's comfortable and complacent.

It's totally NOT edgy, because those involved in it have no teeth, and just suck cock with their flabby drooly mouths.

I think TakiMag's Gavin McInnes in his "The Myth of Shock Value" said it best - [link]

"The shock-value accusation assumes you have appointed yourself provocateur and then take the opposite position of everyone else merely to be difficult" he points out in his essay. "The assumption that someone is saying something merely to get a rise out of someone else is so boring it makes me want to cry. The same goes for the assumption that someone is only spouting an opinion because he's paid to say it."

He continues: "Libertarians are constantly accused of sucking the Koch dick, but if your opinions are so flaccid that anyone can buy them, nobody's going to listen. If someone was so inclined to pretend to be someone they're not, they'd become an actor or a salesman. Being offensive isn't lucrative. It'll lose you clients, cost you your job, and even suck you into a soul-crushing lawsuit".

And, a final nail in the coffin : "A contrarian isn't someone who randomly chooses the opposite position. He's someone who doesn't shy away when the facts bring him to an unpopular place".

Doesn't shy away. Yes, that's correct.

However, McInness misses one vital aspect he, as a Westerner, cannot fully grasp when vivisecting the opposition to unpopular opinions and shocking ides, to the "edgy" stuff. This aspect is discreditation, one that has been used wildly in the Soviet Union, and that truely rings of "cultural marxist" tendrils creeping up.

This whole "you're just edgy and rebellious, your opinions are therefore irrelevant" is eerily similair to the USSR tactic of denouncing the regime's opponents as clinically insane. Compare this:

"Oh, you're a racist? Wow you're just edgy, you're saying this for shock-value and you're opinions can't be hold up as valid, now, go and sit in ostracization" with "Oh, so you don't agree with the Party? You must be insane, you're saying this because you suffer from depression and personality disorders, now go and sit in this clinic".

Yep. Similar.

Calling someone edgy and rebellious is a tactic used to discredit and defame their opinions, make the laughable if they aren't. Unlike the Soviet tactic, it's more insidious, because it marks a person as an immature follower, someone who choose an opposing position because they wanted attention.

They wave this finger at you "oh you, edgy fucker. You better stop it, or we put you in real jail for this childish bullshit you dare spout". And they do. They put us sexy edgy motherfuckers to jail just for the opinion, the word, and the art. Don't believe me? Well, there's this - [link]

So, what's not "real" about that? What's not real about having an opinion and worldview outside the political correctness cesspool? None of those previously mentioned un-rebellious hipsters risk jobs or their lives when they pronounce their support of gay marriage or women rights, no vegans risk bodily integrity when they oppose animal slaughter, no angry black women get lynched by white supremacists for blog posts – the worst they face is rape by their "bruuuuthas",

This is all cultural warfare aimed to emasculate people. Express your maleness? Mysoginist. Express your assertiveness? Tough guy. Express a relative truth? Edgy insane shock-value drone.

In this frame, the only real people are limpwristed effiminate dickheads and raging college cunts, because they whine shy-ly and burp under their breath.

Also, another mating call of un-edgy hipster is "you're immature". Well fuck you, I am. I didn't know that maturity is expressed through worldview, I thought it was more about stuff like holding a polite conversation without yelling "CHEESEMONKEYS" and not peeing your pants, and not throwing a tantrum when you don't get enough money from your boss. But suddenly, maturity is measured by what kind of political agenda you subscribe to. Wonders of the world.

I can honestly say that I'm immature, because like with most people, my psyche had stopped it's formation around 17 years of age, and that's the age of when most people in most countries don't even get to buy alcohol legally.

But wait, there's more where that came from. The most interesting thing is the media. Because, I'm sorry, you non-conformist-conformist-non-people, but folks working in the media, artists included, have to be edgy, or if not, then YOU shouldn't whine that modern television is all Honey Boo-Boo and non scathing political commentary.

A media figure that's not edgy better not exist. If I'm edgy, I have Hunter S. Thompson's coked-up ghost standing beside me shooting his .45. And he HATED Nazis. But he still had the guts to tell shit as it came straight of out his mind, ready to get his ass handed to him for it.

You? Well, I don't know who stands next to you. Trayvon Martin? Pfthaha.

It has balls to stand up to something, and all the eunuchs get jealous.

To sum it up, knives are edgy. And you know what's totally not edgy? What's round and smooth?

A dildo. A fake phallus. A vibrator.

As a journalist, my job is to ram up people's arses. What I came to realize, it's better if you ram up people's asses as a knife and not a dildo.

It's better for both your career and dignity.

So, don't be a dildo.

Stay frosty and be edgy.

"Never argue with stupid people, they will drag you down to their level and then beat you with experience." - Mark Twain

There's something I needed to tell strangers, and here it is.

A few days ago, one user sent me a link to this journal - [link] – obviously expecting me to react to it.

In case you don't want a brain tumaah, I'll briefly recap: homeschool kid rants about the evils of racism, demands all those having "racist" outlooks to be lobotomized in his make-believe fantasyland.

You know, I'm always as brutally honest with you guys as it can get. My first reaction was knee-jerked, a desire to go, and troll, and write long-winded assposts denying everything the little fagnugget is saying, draw on facts, wikipedia, articles, barrels of acidic sarcasm and my own bedazzlingly edgy wit. This reaction I, as a human being, always do have when a clownface tittyshit is writhing verbally on my frontpage, demanding that I EXPLAIN MY VIEWS.

But here's the catch.

I'm no longer interested in explaining my views. And I no longer have the luxury to waste my time on people.

Now, I don't mean it in a cocky arrogant "you're way below me, hence why I'm not explaining shit to you". I mean it in a sincere tone.

I'm a preacher, I'm a fuhrer, I'm a pope – NOT an educator, not an academic. I never will be, I won't strive for it.

There are several things that I came to understand that is wrong with the approach the White Nationalist/Supremacist movement has employed, which I once adhered to, but then, in a moment of blinding enlightment realized to be futile.

This approach is based upon two fallacies of a humanistic outlook:

1) That you can teach an old dog new tricks
2) That all White people are equally valuable

I'll disassemble these two points and show you, that the only path to peace and prosperity within the goals of our movement, is utter contempt and selective deafness.

So, the new tricks. We like to think that people learn stuff. We also like to think that if we put a rational human being in front of proven facts, they will make a rational conclusion, accept the facts, the proof and reach the desired consensus on the posed argument.

That's a false preconception, because it's based on the premise that people are rational. The premise is such, because the person who created this premise, was rational. But other people more often than not, aren't, and are ruled by emotions and bias.

And bias, in return, is based on the individual prism of experience, that the person possesses. I'm a firm proponent of the idea that everything we are as individuals, is experience. Our world, our reality IS experience. That is the problem. We are all trapped in the bubble of our experiences. But of course, they are not entirely impenetrable, our realities. And they aren't all equally removed from the OBJECTIVE reality. More so, the value of this condensed experience that forms a worldview, is determined on how much it distorts the objective rules of nature.

These realities can also cross. A common-shared experience creates nation and culture, for example. It creates relatability and empathy. That's why say, disabled people like to stick with disabled people, because their experience is similar. That's why white europeans stick with white europeans when they're left alone, because there's a wide cultural experience bonding them.

But, this also means that different people live in different realities. Shaped through things they experience directly, they also EXPERIENCE LIFE DIFFERENTLY, and therefore, draw completely different conclusions about stuff.

That's the point I want to hammer down – you can't argue with a homeschooled 18-year old Social Justice Warrior. His reality and YOUR reality don't even rub the edges. You live in different worlds, and explaining history to him is like trying to explain an alien from the 18th dimenstion what "bitter" means. It's completely futile to flood people like this with stuff you honestly feel is so self-evident it doesn't even deserve an explantion.

No. They won't get it. Think of these people as aliens, fellow White Nationalists. They are insectoid dwellers of an unknown space, full of brilliant Africans, oppressed white lesbians, contributive bums and evil white slavers clanking the chains on the necks of beautiful People of Color.

Their reality is far removed from what we call OBJECTIVE. These anti-racists never experienced war or death aside the death of their pet or the peacefull passing of a relative in a brightly lit IR. They rain scorn upon others, but they never slept in their own piss or shit, clawed for survival or made a hard choice.

It's easy to paint evil and good when you live in a sterile world. And it's easy to come up with your own in this sterility, to take every penny for granted, every image for truth, ever word as a word of God. There isn't much in their worlds to compare this sterilized, TV-fed knowledge to the animalistic, feral life. The dichotomy of good and evil is the staple that bounds their rather meaningless existence together. So they have an enemy which they can hate freely and not cower in the same system that denounces hate as the biggest evil conceivable.

I can't compare these people with me. Our experiences are so radically, physically different, that they can't be translated from one to another without significant loss of data. These people cry for others to understand different plights, but they are so utterly removed from plight itself, that these cries are just automated parrot calls, souless tweets, facebook activism that they might not exist. And therefore, they would never understand objectivity. The rationelle of your world and theirs plays by different rules. It also can't be negated.

That's why White Nationalist academia is bound to fail. You are nothing but NASA employees yelling at a savage. Your words don't register, your knowledge not welcome when they KNOW that it's the Great Black Stag that impregnated the Universe and gave birth to the Sun and Moon. Different epochs and a parsec-wide gap between your worlds.

When I understood that, that there's no point in bludgeoning through a different reality, I came at peace with a lot of things. I realized that to sway people, they already have to be with you, on some level. And even then, in our times, fancy worlds don't do shit – only appeal to emotion and shouting will help.

History teaches only one lesson – that it doesn't teach any lessons. I prefer to aknowledge this simple fact and proselytize freely, without morals attached.

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And here we come to the second part.

Why is there this need to lure every white person in our movement, to declare them de facto valuable? It's a bad tactic. It creates strife and unnecessary dissipation of effort and resources.

My point is that as stated in the above segment, a good chunk of White people are lost to the cause in their bubbles of self-made reality. You can't educate them, you'll never make them to see your point even if for you it's crystal-clear. They are out of the equation. They are undesired. They are useless, in a nutshell.

So why bother, I say? Fuck these white people, I say. We need only those that share the common experience, those that fit into our understanding and view of the reality  - one that has been proven for centuries to be effective for our kind. And the others can live as they wish. Maybe we need those who teeter on the edge? Maybe. That's why there might be a need for propaganda. But not for those completely and utterly out of grasp.

For us, they are parasites at best, our murderers at worst. So know your enemy and don't fraternize with it. They don't bother us - or perish in confrontation.

I'm probably a horrid person in your eyes, but my experiences led me to approach most people as sentient animals until proven human. Their value, to me, is entirely dependent on their contribution to the industry and economy. Everything else is a bonus. I view myself in that light as well. If I am purposeless, I'd better not exist. But these people, these OTHER white people have no self-profound self-reflection, because their reality lacks the ideologems of honor, purpose, duty and neccessity. They have ideologems we don't have - but should we waste time changing that situation? What are the benefits, I ask?

A lot of people are without purpose, though. A lot of white people too. For a primitive tribalist to see them cut off our bloodline and perish would be sad – but a pragmatic person would see merit in it. They don't ask for salvation, and they don't deserve it. They don't ask for education, and they don't deserve us teaching them. On the other hand, they wish us to stop existing...

Well, in this clash of realities, I believe that the only thing matters on a philosophical point, is who handles a gun better. I can guarantee that it wouldn't be those that would go see "Django Unchained". Or those who flip over the word "race".

For those who really want to "pop" the bubble of a mysterious reality behind the eyes of a social justice warrior cultural marxist, there's always the Breivik Solution.

In conclusion, what I wish to say, is that we have to accept, as White Nationalists and White Supremacists, National-Socialists and Fascists, that we will always loose the war if we will try to save the enemy and turn them to our side. If they're harmless – ignore them, if they're hostile – kill them. We HAVE to, must for our own sake accept that we can't change them.

We should focus on those people who matter, and not on Aliens from Planet Faggot. Thats why I tell you this, reader, and not post textwalls ripped from the "Bell Curve" on Youtube while arguing with some liberal.

That's what I decided to do: - oil my guns, polish my knives, sharpen my teeh and tongue, and then do my job for what is right in my eyes. Damned if I do, but damned if I don't.

And that's why I won't explain shit about my views. Scattering beads before the swines.... I'm past that entertainment.
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On another note, congratulate me friends – I passed my firearm handling and shooting exams for the reinstation of my buy&carry permit.

Lolz, the American elections were spectacular (unlike how our sleepy russian ones usually are).

Personally, I wanted Romney to win bad, not because he's a Republican, but cuz he'd set a rough confrontation with Russia in places, and that'd be a good wake-up call for our dozing-off military reform, but alas it's Barack again.

I dunno what you americans are thinking with this. I watched the media spew so much shit about how the country is moving "forward" and only old white men cling to their lost values, but you've just let it carry on.
Your country is run by foreigners, that's what's happening. You let minorities decide who's gonna be the next president, and before you blink, YOU'LL be the minority - with the only difference that the brown, hispano-nigerian majority with their white feminist slut-slaves won't give a rat's ass about your wellbeing.

I think americans are crazy at this point. Crazy for blabbering and fighting us russians and our USSR system, then doing a 180 and trying to install multicult socialism in a formerly homogenous demographic. You know, the USSR was a massive experiment, which had cost lives and wealth to Russians. In the end, people had chosen - they had chosen to live in homogenous nation-states, and USSR was dismantled.

When Russians pulled out from the "minority" republics and left the industry and infrastructure they had built in the hands of those newly independent national states, you know what had happened? These states collapsed. Largely because of the reasons of the incompetence of those people. You don't leave a monkey at the control department of an oil plant and wait patiently for purified gas to continue being pumped on the market. Nature just doesn't work that way.

Basically, you're just signing yourself for an economic collapse. Blacks and Latinos in charge of this mothefucka right here won't put the numbers and productions together. So good luck with that. Bye-bye, superpower.

Ya know, I'm fed up with it.

When I post an artwork on a fucking WEBSITE DEDICATED TO ART, I expect some fucking artistic critique, some discussion about technique, tips for improvement, all that fancy art jazz. Even when it's fandom-related, and natural to talk about those points, I sort of expect people to respect the artist.

But noooo... The dA 40k community gets more atrocious during the day and I feel more and more ashamed to be a part of it.

Becuase like, 50% of feedback that I get on my 40k art isn't about the artwork, or the characters there, no, it's fucking stupid X FACTION IS COOLER, FUCK YEAH X FACTION! MY FAVE FACTION BEATS UR STUPID FACTION N CHARACTERS! (ADD SOME STUPID OUTCRY FROM THE LORE BELONGING TO X FACTION). I get stupid notes and messages like DRAW MORE X, and shit.

You know, dear fucking watchers, my patience is running fucking thin. I'm trying to optimize my communications. When I was unemployed, I had time to argue about stupid fanfuck shit and tolerate it - now I don't.  I don't have time for your stupid fanboyism, and I no longer have tolerance for it.

I don't seek out artists who draw shit I find disinteresting, and start yelling at them X SUCKS, BURN THE X, U N UR TALENT SHOULD DRAW Y MORE! I just don't go there. I don't post on My Little Pony artworks how they should draw more Transformers, or yell LET THE GALAXY BURN on arts of some Imperium shit, and I expect such courtesy in return, but I don't get it. If you don't like the direction or the subject of my art, you can baww at me, write essays about it, discuss it with me - just don't behave like a loudspeaker for your fanboyism. More so, you can just use the Search button and find stuff that is harmonius with your fancy.

I'm going to block the latter, the people who have no respect towards my artwork, to teach people to fucking stick to the object of the art itself. Not because I'm just sick of it - because I don't have the capacity, temporal and else, to argue dumbfuckery. Infulge me in critique of artwork and theme - just be smart about it, not a invertebrate fanboy.

And if you feel pressed by this dumbshit community here, you can reach me on a more pro platform here - [link]

Thanks.

So, thanks to everyone who watched the Livestream!

I honestly didn't think up to 20 people would watch it considering the timezone and all, but hey - it far exceeded my expectations. So, props to you, and I hope to make the next stream more kickass - add music, turn off MSN notifications (lol) and all that other shit. And another thing - as you know, I'm a douchebag, and as a certified douchebag, I wanna tell my viewers this: if you wanna have nerdfag chats, there's plenty of such on the internet. If you come to watch an artstream and request artwork, be at least decent to stick to whats going on the stream, and not socialize like retards.

Thanks, that fed my ego lots)

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So, since I've started this blog about some random shit, I'll continue.
My life's pretty on the peak right now - I'm SWAMPED with work and learned to slack. I have about 3-4 press events weekly, interviews to finish and shit, yet I somehow manage to go on with art and stuff. Untill GAMES kick in.

My game schedule is such for the last of this year: Dishonored ->Medal of Honor: Warfighter -> Hitman: Absolution -> FarCry3. Aaand, if I'll present myself with an XBox for my birthday, there'd be Halo4. I'm pretty sure I WILL buy an Xbox, but here's the catch - I'm going to mod it so I can pay 10 bucks for a pirated game, not 60, so unlikely I'd go online from it or buy an Xbox Live sub. Plus I'm not really a competitive gamer, I like good, story-driven single-player. Anyway, if you know some titles I should take a look for this fall-winter beginning, lemme hear it. Just please, no Assasins Creed or CoD. But XBoxes would sell as supercheap bundles in the holiday season, so damn if I miss the opportunity.

Speaking of an XBox, guess who've had fun tiems with Windows 8 shit? Me of course. So, my basic thoughts, as my copy of Win 8 is lying on preorder - fucking awesome shit. I'm very pleased with where Microsoft is going for the new, gesture and touch-optimised GUI, the fluidity and lightweightedness of it, the overall uniformity that should span between Windows 8, Windows Phone 8 and XBox updated firmware. Finally Microsoft built a full business and mutimedia ecosystem across all formfactors and platforms. I fully realized - unlike many - that Windows was completely right that it didn't jump too hard in the tablet and phone market at the times when it had Windows Vista and 7. Those were OS's fit only for a desktop solution, and couldnt be optimized for tablets and smartphones. The few tablets with Windows 7 that were released on market in limited numbers were atrocious.

So they waited till their lineup was harmonized across all device formfactors. The new Win 8 GUI works flawlessly with that. As an Android user, I can say that I've made the jump to Android on my mobile devices only due to the fact that Microsoft had a gaping void in that market after the demise of the Windows Mobile 6 platform (that was freaking advanced for its time - multitasking on singlecore 512 Mhz processors? Yo Apple?). Now, I feel that all my systems can be unified, and it's cool.

I've also played with the range of the upcoming Win 8 devices, particularly the Asus and Samsung Hybrid tablet-laptops, the Sony Vaio slider-things and MSI sliders, with the new Thinkpad and the rotating Dell XPS transformer. It's astounding to see how many new, innovative stuff Microsoft spurred with both the OS and the Surface tablet in it's OEMs, so the choice is there. I can sound like a fanboy, but transformers are the best thing that happened to the PC market - largely thanks to Asus too. So I'm eagerly waiting for this OS, and tomorrow my gorgeous Logitech Touchmouse is arriving.

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Anyway. Onto other topics. It's Halloween's almost unto us, and I wonder which costume should I go to work in. My regular home attire, gasmask in all? Ugly bat? Snake made from curtains? Thefuuuuck. And November 4th, Russian holdiay of National Unity is soon too - good old rally times, where I can finally flex a muscle. Then goes my birthday, and then New Years, and my long awaited, fantabulous, UNBE-FUCKING-LIEVABLE 3 WEEK paid vacation. Maaaan, I love what's going on now, the activity in the IT, computer and telecoms sector, all those financial results, expos and product announcements popping up (iPad3 anyone? Really, nothing says "Im a lame company" like selling Google Nexus 7 twice the price), and I love my job adrenaline, but a dude needs rest. Also to play all those games in my super-tight schedule.

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An unknown to most of you fact, is that last month I visted Norway for business purposes. Close friends knew, but I kept the info private in lieve of crazy-ass stalkers that follow me religiously and could've caused complications by alerting Norweigian authorities with cries of OMG NORWEIGAN EMBASSY, ON THESE DATES YOU'LL HAS A CRAZY MID-TWENTIES RUSSIAN ENTERING UR COUNTREE, U KNO HE'S A BREIVIK-SUPPORTING TERRORIST AND WILL MURDER ALL UR MUSLIM NEWBORN CHILDREN? Granted it's silly, but security, people) Plus my business trip schedule was tight for the few days I stayed in Oslo, so no big chance I would've had time to meet anyone.

But the trip was great, and I loved both Oslo and Norway in general, what's I've seen of it. It was a dream come true, as I've dreamt of visiting this country. The nature was beautiful and serene, and yet, Oslo busy and noisy enough to not bore me to death, as compared to Helsinki and to a lesser degree, Stockholm (sorry Finns and Swedes, but you're living in Sleepy Hollow Central). I was fucking pampered as hell, so it was a most pleasant experience, and Norwegians are cool people as heck - all fluent English speakers, not too prude, and know how to drink. So the time I spent there was fucking fantastic and even tho I was there for business, I managed to culturally enrich myself by visiting some historic places and museums, explore the city to every nook and cranny, try exotic food and get lost in a medieval fortress. Beautiful, placating and fit country - and I can see how someone wants to protect it. Oslo indeed is overrun by blacks, pakis and muslims - I went to a bookstore and was mortified to see a black person at a counter. First thing I saw when getting from the airport in Gardmauen - a fucking MOSQUE. I'd love to live and work in Norway for a couple of years... Funny thing that I talked to a few natives about what happened at Utoya, and they all sort of seem to hold themselves back on the subject.

So, expect pics from the place shortly) Some seen it, including my ugly mug, so it's time to share some of my horrid camera skills to the world too.

Shortly afterwards I also visited Kaliningrad, ex-Koenigsberg, the Russian anclave in the Baltic, and was pleasantly surprised too. Absolutely white, boisterous, prospering and old city. Stayed there for less time, but the time spent was positive as well.

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And returning back to art and trips. In my Norway trip I've made several landscape sketches - and boy, I do draw a lot on my cherished Galaxy Note 10.1. But I'm a lazy fuck that even forgets to transfer new music, so the daily sketches I make there just sorta stay there as training, excercise material. Fucking great to pass time at boring, nauseous meetings or press-conferences, but such a bummer to share rapidly. Still gotta dump it all on the PC and work around them, but... procrastination.

Artwise, shit's cool anyway. I'm ready to move in my environment phase, and I will expand on screencapture sketches series that I've previously started with the horror villain portraits and then moved to the games. This is fun and allows me to expand my horizons and practice shit. I lately don't have that much time and concentraton on heavily polished, complicated works - but I'm planning to fix that with some more biomech conceptart and 40k works. Yes, Torturer and company is back, like it or not, and in the wider spectrum of the trend to plug your characters everywhere, I think I'll get even more aggressive with the presentation and harsher with the themes. So yes, expect more raped Sororitas, murdered Grey Knights, mutilated Imperials and all that stuff you've accustomed to hate my ass for) Also never going is the political propaganda and horror.

And of course watch out for collaborations with my thug-in-crime 4 Lyfe, . These would be mostly Game of Thrones centered.

On the literature side, I'm working simultaneous;ly on 2 stories.  Yep, I'm a productivity and multitasking maniac. I'm pleased to announced that the protagonist of my horror-torture story "You want, you get, you deserve" that was deleted from dA due to obscenity, is striking back in a new, even nastier story - and much more subtle at that though. The second work is a long-awaited by my co-authors and installation in the "Rival till Death" fanfic - bigass piece of 40k wankery that's about 80% complete.

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And in other news - I still have to watch a shitload of upcoming movies, even though I went to see Paranormal Activity 4 (so-so) and Sinister (not bad). Silent Hill 4 looks promising, and I wanna take a look at jewish demons from Possession too. My obsession with hoarding music is rising again, so maybe expect a compilation or something.

All in all, I'm stressed as fuck, hyped and watching the first snow fall in October. Being on edge is great, so - till next time.

Will go live here [link]

This will be my first foray into streaming, so yeah)